Busy

So, apparently I suck at blogging. Or at least, I suck at updating my blog. I log on here and look at my sidebars and click the links there to keep up with other peoples' blogs, but once it comes to mine, I don't do anything. Maybe it's because I know no one follows this blog haha. Or maybe it's because I'M SO FREAKING BUSY! I have no life outside of school! This past week I had a total of 9 hours of sleep...IN 5 DAYS! That's an average of 1.8 hours of sleep a day! Crazy! All I do is eat. school. homework. no sleep in there. Granted I find sleep a waste of time, but it is unfortunately a life necessity to functioning. One day I shall invent a pill or patch that let's me stay awake for forever.

I look around me and see the world passing by so quickly. Everyone is doing something productive, and everyone has life. I feel as if I'm just a rock slowly sinking in a rushing river. Every time I try to breathe, there's no time. Every time I try to relax. There's not time. Every time I try to enjoy life. There's no time. I hope that college will eliminate this feeling of being buried underneath chains of rules and regulations. Chains of being a teenager. I want to be free and on my own...away from High School. I'm over it. Never thought I would say those words, but it's true. I'm so over it. My friends have all told me how amazing college is, and I'm ready to experience that. I'm so done with HS.

The only good things in my life are my friends (granted there is a plethora of dramas occurring simultaneously...but it's fun nonetheless), band, music, and the idea that all of this work will hopefully one day get me into Harvard.

Life could be better. Life should be better. So why isn't it? ♥

I laugh

Wow, It's been such a long time since I last posted. Haha I laugh.  Anyways to sum up what has happened in the last..i don't know...3 months:
 - I love being a junior in HS. It's where I belong
 - Marching Band made it to finals!!! yay! It was a rough season but we pulled through :)
 - My Grades are good as usual. Except for Physics. Bahhh
 - I have some awesome friends out there <3
 - Music has become such a huge part of my life, especially this year..I don't know what I would do without it
 - I am the bands photographer in a way...every event that occurs I usually end up taking 200-400 pictures. No matter how short the event.
 - I need a real camera. Not some tiny digital compact.
 -  I have discovered more of who I am and I love every ounce of it :)
 - HS sucks. Not the drama and friends..I can deal with all of that. But the workload and the exhaustion caused by it all...it sucks. I can't wait for college.
 - I found my twin :)
 - 2010 was quite the rollercoaster year!

And that's pretty much it. I'll post back later talking about 2010. Cuz boy has it been a hectic year or what!!!

Success!

As you may know, I recently auditioned for the Jazz Band. Mr. J, our director, was to chose 2 alto saxes for the ensemble. I was one of the 3 who auditioned. While I do not like to boast, I would say that I was one of the better amongst the three of us; however, I have yet to acquire any jazz experience - an area in which the other 2 have excelled in since the beginning of their musical careers. With this thought in mind, I knew that I would have to work extremely hard to beat them. We received our music one week before the audition. I practiced the etude for 2 hours almost every day. On days when I was unable to practice at home, I practiced during school. I was obsessed with making it into the ensemble. Without it, I would have no music this year and that's not acceptable. I can't live without music. At. All. So, the day came for me to audition. I was ready; I knew I was. In spite of my obvious preparation, I was still extremely nervous. My director had heard me play the etude countless of times through the hallways of the music building. He knew I could play it almost to perfection. When I walked into the audition, it was obvious that I was nervous especially when I messed up the etude in places that I had never messed up before. However, having heard me successfully play it, he asked me to play those parts again to confirm what he had originally heard. After the audition, I walked out mad at myself for messing something up because I was nervous. I should have been more confident. I was pretty convinced that I would not make it into the band. Two days later the results are in....I made 2nd alto! I was soo happy!!!!!!!!! This is going to be extremely fun, and I can't wait! I'm kind of nervous though because I've never done it before so it's a completely new environment for me. But, I'll make the best of it :) Our first practice is tomorrow! I can't wait!!!! ♥♥♥